So its been a month since ive last blogged...yep an actual month crazy right?? and now im back to say nothing in all its entirety. I'm going crazy..yup certifiably crazy, and im not really enjoying it. Life is becoming more extreme as it ventures on and im not sure i can really take it. It's very annoying cause my emotions are all over the place, and i dont know what to do to change it. and then i look back on the situations i over exagerate on and wonder why??? I feel retarded haha..everything is getting so intense and i cant stop it i feel like im on a wild roller coaster that i want to but dont want to get off of. This blog is getting me no where..isnt that wonderful.
..im retarded..
but anyway im very excited for tomorrow...not only am i going on a picnic, i get to go to soccer practice (though i dont really consider that a plus), and i get to see sweeny todd finally!!!! And this weekend is a 3 day weekend..which is fantastic i must say.
And today i have a game...which i might not be starting for..haha their lost, cause honestly i could care less about this soccer team. My coach thinks by threatening me she will get me to cooperate with her and all it does is piss me off and make me not want to even be on the team. She's gay is the conclusion. Im so frustrated with her cause she acts just like a teenager and your just like your supposed to be an adult..act like it! ugh adults are sooooo overated. I might also get my captain badge revoked to on actually unfair conditions. She just wants something to change and thinks by showing that she has control over me she can get people to listen to her..and shes wrong. She takes me captain badge and ill come to even less practices, she can not start me all she wants cause i could really care less anymore.
This is the downer...im losing interest in most things i used to love. i dont understand why, but im just not interested anymore. Soccer is taking the hardest hit..i have no desire to go to practice and games anymore and its frustrating.
Idk about life anymore...im just hoping the scary and intense feelings im getting and the way im acting either goes away or turns out for the better.
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