.change my mind.

It held her attention, and oh how she had been waiting for this moment. As she walked slowly, controlling the driving reckless emotions that thrashed inside of her, she kept her gaze leveled on it. With the first touch of her fingers against the metal, joy spread throughout her body, acting like a catalyst towards all the harmful feelings damned up inside. An expression of ridiculus happiness erupted on her face with the plop of her being into the cold awaiting seat. She kicked her feet once, twice, then three times and remarked with spine chilling excitement at the soaring sensation that was currently running through her body. As she pushed the swing higher and higher all problematic thoughts were lost and replaced with calm clarity. The frozen air bit into her lungs and made her breath catch, focusing her swirling mind and bringing her crashingly back into the present. The swing slowed as if the weight of her precarious thoughts were tangible enough to bring it to a stop. Her feet touched the ground, and brought along with it, her mind. She let one tear escape before pushing the swing off again, thrusting herself back into the beautiful baron land that came with the breathtaking territory of swinging. Yet the desolate thoughts seemed to invade her paradise, corrupting the bare surroundings, and filling it with emotions and instances that pushed to be dealt with. As the overwhelming thoughts grew in pressure, she brought the escalating swing to a stop. Stumbling, she fell upon the ground griping her head with the intensity that it would fall off. Breath came faster as thought after thought flew through her mind from all sides, blinding her from reality. How could she act so stupidly, how could she think she would be able to run away from herself, these questions came to rest undbidingly before her. She choked on the scream she was suppressing, and bit her lip in hope to slow life down. She felt tension seep into her body, and naseau combined with the urge to sob came soon after. As she came to realize that running did no good, the conclusion presented itself in it's entirety. She would deal with it here and now.