It's all in how you perceive it.

Lets face it, life is about perception, how you perceive things often times determines how you act and how others act towards you. So how do we balance between what we perceive as the truth, and what really is...that's the kicker, we don't. I for one go through my life with the thought that if people truly care, they won't lie to me. Obviously my perception on the honesty of the human race is alittle off, and because i hide behind that non-truth, i more than often end up getting hurt. But what other off-kilter perceptions plauge our kind?? Well, there's the perception of love, because really, the chance of finding that one special person keeps getting smaller by the minute. There's also the perception of knowledge which i am sure most people have think they have, and they dont. But how can we really know if are perceptions are right or wrong?? Just because i say it's wrong doesn't really prove anything, and that pretty much goes for everyone else to. When i really think about it, i guess that i tend to link perception with judgement, because the way i perceive someone is how im going to judge them, even if i try not to.

So far, this post is making me kinda sad.

What if everything we thought and felt was a lie. What if there actually isnt such a thing called love, that it's just a perception of how another felt gone wrong. Whose to say that people really do fall in love together, what if the other really doesnt feel the same and just lies because they want the warm happy projection that they are living life to the fullest.

I am going to drown myself in what ifs but now that i've started i feel the compulsion to keep at it.

What if everything you thought you stood for was wrong or a lie. Would that make everyone a poser?? But what if everyone already is a poser because we all believe we are something that we are not therefore we are not real. But if we believe it, isnt it true?? NO...i believed alot of things that weren't true, even about myself. How can we let others dictate what is right and wrong for us to perceive of ourselves or others. How are they any better or smarter? Do they lie to themselves to make them believe that they can judge others?? I think so, I tend to lie to myself all the time to stem guilt, or give justifiable reasons for doing the stupid option when i know whats right. Is everyone born with the knowledge of what is right or wrong, or is it impressioned on us like every other trend or moral in our society. How is it right for me to judge others when i myself hate being judged in return.

My last bottomless question...what am i going to do with my life, or better yet myself, once i've truly messed it up??

I hate open ended questions because they are like pandora's box in my head and i won't stop thinking till i happen upon some other mindless question that sucks me in.

To cool for school???--me never, but i seem to be missing alot of it lately, which makes me think if im not to cool for it, maybe im just to lazy or non motivated.